Friday, February 5, 2010

Don't Ever Change

Don't Ever Change - The Beatles

About six months ago, something significant happened in my life. Something that changed me in a very real way. Looking back, it seems almost stupid that this would have had such a profound effect on me, but out of this, I feel like I have grown leaps and bounds closer to understanding what it takes to be an adult and take care of myself. What happened?

I quit biting my nails.

I know, I know. This sounds just totally ridiculous, but let me explain a bit. I have been a nail-biter since I was a child. That's 25 years of literally everyone in my life harassing me about it. The ex-f used to say that he "wouldn't put a ring on hands that looked like that" (which is sort of funny, since he did). But now, every day, I look at my hands and barely recognize them. I watch them do things like pick up a pen or wash dishes and they don't look like my hands. They're pretty; they sometimes have nail polish, which I never used to do. I broke a nail at work and had no idea what to do, as I had never remotely been in that situation before.

Anyway, this may seem like a tiny change, but let me tell you- I never thought I would be a girl with pretty hands. To have positively changed myself in this way was a revelation, of sorts. It made me realize and see that it is possible to make changes to yourself, to your body, and they will last. You can break habits and change your lifestyle. I'm kind of drunk off the possibilities, actually. So as part of my New Leaf Program (the one in which I turn over a new leaf for the new year), I started waking up early (like this) and trying to not be fat (like this, this, and this) and so far, it's been... changey.

I'll let you know if anything crazy happens, like I start cleaning up my room for fun or something.


Stars Seeker_A.K said...

Hi there!
Hehe, first post? -looks around- yep think so... I like your blog :) I'm kinda new here haha.
About making changes to yourself, totally agree. When you do something and then you look at what you've done you feel weird but satisfaction at the same time...most of the times lol. But changes are good!

Mary Ellen said...

Congratulations - I believe those small bad-habit changes are really huge. And, hopefully, lead to the confidence to make more changes. Keep up the good work - without getting obsessive about it.

Fizzlemed said...

I, too am a nail-biter. I finally stopped, and ripped one half way down. I found these great things called 14-day nail shield at Walgreens.. and I patched-her right up. At least until it grows long enough so it won't hurt if I cut it.